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Stephie, Spectre said that you felt I was yelling at you last night. I'm so sorry. I wasn't yelling at you, which is why I said I wasn't angry with you. I had just left Russia and I was just...too emotionally drained to deal with strangers in my house without any explanation. And if Scott was someone who had explained better than, "I'm Scott," as if I should know him, I wouldn't have flipped out so much. Then he refused to hand me Marie and it freaked me out. I came to you because I thought you'd understand I had been through something terrible and then finding some stranger who wouldn't hand me Marie was pretty...emotionally traumatising. I didn't mean to yell, I was just freaking out. And when you yelled back, probably because you were freaking out too. I just couldn't handle it any more and I couldn't stay in the same room if it was going to be an argument. I didn't have the energy.

I'm very sorry, Stephie. And will you tell Scott that now that I'm calmer, I actually appreciate that he didn't hand over Marie. He didn't explain who he was, but neither did I, and the fact that he wouldn't surrender her to someone who barged in and demanded her is...pretty impressive. Even if it did piss me right the fuck off.

Are we okay? I really...I would like to talk to you about Russia. It was shit. I'm at RMMH with Katya until she can leave. She's quite ill. All stuff she will recover from, but it'll take awhile. And I don't want her to be alone because she's been alone for so long.

Date: 2010-05-16 04:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
We're okay, Thomas.

I was just freaking out because I didn't expect you back just then and then you were yelling my name and I thought something really bad had happened, like demons had followed you back from Russia and we had to get out, like, RIGHT THEN, and then it was just Scott and argh, the relief made me angry, if that makes any sense at all. I thought people were dead. I was so scared and all naked. Fucking brain. And then Spectre told me I was festering. That I was choosing to fester. Like being upset was this big choise I made just to shit people. Sorry.

Uhm. Okay my original point was that we're okay. That I'm sorry Russia was so shit and that I'm too sensitive and yelly. Love you.

Date: 2010-05-16 04:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I don't think that's what Spectre meant, but if you're upset with him I'll let you take it up with him. I was freaking out too. I have no way to know the man in my living room isn't a demon who has killed everyone upstairs and is holding the baby to do it in front of me. Or even just a normal human. It was a normal human who did it to Jaida right in front of Jordan's eyes. That was my niece and if I wasn't already protective of my family, I think losing her upped it by about 200%. Half of my screaming up the stairs was to make sure you really were okay, because you're family, you know?

And you know...if you were okay, to yell about the ponce in the living room...

You're not too sensitive at all. We both have issues and we both freaked out because of them. I think that's pretty allowed, Babe. It's going to happen. But I'll always love you, and that's that.

I went to Tasha to talk to her about Russia because she's from there, but she had a bad day today. I've never seen where she lived before. It's...well, it's beautiful, but what's under the surface. Bleh. I guess, no matter where you go, there's shit under the surface and I don't just mean in the sewers.

Date: 2010-05-16 05:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
No, I'm not upset with Spectre, I'll forget about it, it's fine. And I get it. I would have freaked out too. I probably would have stabbed someone in the neck, if I'd come home and they had Marie. Thing is I didn't realise you didn't know Scott, but yeah, he does live in Paris and he's not, you know, part of this world, but if I'd thought about it I would've realised you didn't know him and been able to use some, whatchamacallit, forethought. I just wanted to be at your place when you got home and he'd been with me the whole time you were away and he'd been making all the horrible waiting easier.

And he's not a ponce. Well maybe... But I like him.

I love you too, always. And yeah, you're my family too.

Russia sounds... shitty. I dunno what else to say about it. It just sounds horrible all over.

Date: 2010-05-16 05:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm sorry I called someone you like names. I do that though. It's Mums' fault. I call Peter names all the time. And Scott was being a ponce. "It's Scott" is not really an explanation as to who someone is. I'll give him another chance when my soul isn't dying, though. Anyone you like is worth it.

We can never go there again together!!

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