No, I know it's not my fault! I didn't mean it like that. I just meant she's crying about me. That's all. And I wish I could make it better, but I can't. And that's not my fault, but it still is.

I guess it's still weird for me to think about my not being here, because whenever I am...I am. And when I'm not, I'm watching, so I don't feel it. I'm sorry that you all have to.