Friends Only, away from Svetlana

[suave_thomas]

If I never see my mother cry again, it'll be too soon.

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[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I've seen it once before. God it's horrible. She's supposed to be unmovable, you know? At the first time, it wasn't me that caused it, but this time it was.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

It wasn't you that caused it this time, either. It was the fact that you've been taken away. That's not your fault. You didn't make Mums cry, Thomas.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

No, I know it's not my fault! I didn't mean it like that. I just meant she's crying about me. That's all. And I wish I could make it better, but I can't. And that's not my fault, but it still is.

I guess it's still weird for me to think about my not being here, because whenever I am...I am. And when I'm not, I'm watching, so I don't feel it. I'm sorry that you all have to.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I wish we could make it better too. She gets to see you though, and that must be worth more than anyone could ever put into words. I know it does to me. Having you here is always an amazing experience. You make us all so happy.

I understand. It helps to know you're watching, too. I know I never have to feel like I'm really without you. That too, is worth the world.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

You know what else is worth the world? You. You and Mary, giving me the things I never had. The things I died too young and too uhm...holy...to have. I have them now, and I cannot express to you how much it means to me, Adrian. Really.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm far more than happy to give them to you, and I know Mary is as well. We're very, very lucky to be in a position to do so. Having you in my life is extraordinary, blissful, and amazing. Everything I could ever want or need is embodied in you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

All I can say is yay, really!

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Hurrah!