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suave_thomas ([personal profile] suave_thomas) wrote2008-07-06 07:37 pm

To Those in the Know

Apparently my father has pancreatic cancer. Mums just rang from the hospital. He called her. I don't understand why, but maybe it was just because he's alone and she's too wonderful to leave him there with no one. Either way...I can't go see him. And even if I could, I don't know if I would. Mums said we didn't have to. But that's why he wanted to see us. He admitted that he wanted to see Joe, Abby, Adam and Ellie because he was dying and dying has a way of making people realise their mistakes. Not that he admitted them.

He's dying and I'm alive again. And it's weird.

[identity profile] suave-thomas.livejournal.com 2008-07-06 11:02 am (UTC)(link)
We'll take care of her, there's no doubt about that.

It's not going to bother me. It's out of character, but it's really only him, the Templar and Amaris that I feel that way about. Everyone else, I'd do anything for. Maybe it's harsh, ranking him with the likes of them. But the effects he had on the people I love just because he was selfish...they're very similar.

[identity profile] in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com 2008-07-06 11:57 am (UTC)(link)
He deserves harsh, though. There's no denying that. He did have a terrible effect on your life, and the lives of those you loved. In this case, I think you're entitled to think of yourself, and rank him with whoever you think he belongs with.

[identity profile] suave-thomas.livejournal.com 2008-07-06 11:59 am (UTC)(link)
Just as long as I don't lose myself in the anger. I didn't before. The first time I was alive, I was able to move past it. I just have to allow myself to do it again.

[identity profile] in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com 2008-07-06 12:47 pm (UTC)(link)
I have no doubt you will, Thomas. You're a man of strong mind and convictions. I believe you can do anything you put your heart into.

[identity profile] suave-thomas.livejournal.com 2008-07-06 12:48 pm (UTC)(link)
And it's important for everyone that I love that I do. So I will.

[identity profile] in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com 2008-07-06 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
My darling... I love you so much.

[identity profile] suave-thomas.livejournal.com 2008-07-06 01:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I love you too.