suave_thomas: (Ruffian)
suave_thomas ([personal profile] suave_thomas) wrote2007-07-24 06:12 pm

Filtered to Tasha, Aly, Abby, David, Mary and Spectre

Okay. I am actually using the journal Peter made me a long time ago under duress. Peter's being a jackarse and there's things I want to say without him seeing. I can't believe I actually just said that...

Having shocked myself, (and rest assured I now feel suitably guilty) I'll move on. The reason I'm being all hidey? Peter's bad. He's not getting better. And this most likely means that Mary and I will be stuck here for a very long time. It's already been over two weeks. Okay, only by two days. But if memory serves, the pangs can start as early as three. It's never bad that early, but it gets worse fast. And while I could just...deal, I'd rather not. I don't want to watch Mary go through it either. And Joe and Julian are coming in to town on Friday and chances are if Joe and Julian come, it will serve as a sort of stampede and Adam and Violet will too. So there's already going to be issues with...hiding me.

Get to the point, Thomas. Right. I was trying to think of a way to sort of...'solve' both problems at once. Peter clearly still needs someone. My connection here is as strong as it was when Kat was going through hell and she needed me. If someone else were here for him...it would take that connection from me. I could go for a few days, and then come back. Like Mary and William did before. The only person I can think of though is...Robert. I don't know if he'd agree. And Spectre, if you didn't want to see him, I could always ask Rolf. If...everyone thinks it's okay. And I suppose the same could be done again for Mary with William but...only if that is okay with you, Aly. And William, of course.

I'm trying to be proactive. It makes me feel like I'm actually accomplishing something...

[identity profile] whichdoctor.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Augh is right. I can't believe it's come to this. I always thought that no matter how bad it got, the love you share would at least preserve something that you could both rely on. To see Peter turn his back on that... it's a world I never would have conjured in my darkest imaginings. And if Peter won't be there for you, someone needs to.

I know this is the way things will probably have to be, but I still have to ask. Are you absolutely sure you'll be okay with William's presence, and more to the point, when he needs to leave? I know you've been through it before, but this is a different situation, and... I just need to look out for my Little Sister, you know?

[identity profile] ghost-within.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah.

I'll be okay with his presence and when he needs to leave. I know how it is now. But thank you for looking out for me.

[identity profile] whichdoctor.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 03:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I always will, Aly. I love you.

[identity profile] ghost-within.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 03:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I love you too, David. And I love Peter as well. Even if he did call me a mental patient. Though I think he wasn't just referring to me...

[identity profile] whichdoctor.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh my god... I knew he'd said some terrible things, but that's... well, it's certainly beyond what I might have imagined. I feel... dirty, just thinking of him saying that to you. I can't believe it. I wish I didn't have to. That's one of the most heartbreaking things I've ever heard.

[identity profile] ghost-within.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 03:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I've called him worse. In Spanish. Hormones will do that to you. Hormones and grief. Don't be too angry, he's hurting more than I am.

[identity profile] whichdoctor.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm trying not to be. I know he didn't mean it. But in lieu of anger, it just makes me so sad.

[identity profile] ghost-within.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 03:47 pm (UTC)(link)
It is sad.

I'll see you soon, David.

[identity profile] whichdoctor.livejournal.com 2007-07-24 03:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Absolutely.