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[suave_thomas]

Okay. I am actually using the journal Peter made me a long time ago under duress. Peter's being a jackarse and there's things I want to say without him seeing. I can't believe I actually just said that...

Having shocked myself, (and rest assured I now feel suitably guilty) I'll move on. The reason I'm being all hidey? Peter's bad. He's not getting better. And this most likely means that Mary and I will be stuck here for a very long time. It's already been over two weeks. Okay, only by two days. But if memory serves, the pangs can start as early as three. It's never bad that early, but it gets worse fast. And while I could just...deal, I'd rather not. I don't want to watch Mary go through it either. And Joe and Julian are coming in to town on Friday and chances are if Joe and Julian come, it will serve as a sort of stampede and Adam and Violet will too. So there's already going to be issues with...hiding me.

Get to the point, Thomas. Right. I was trying to think of a way to sort of...'solve' both problems at once. Peter clearly still needs someone. My connection here is as strong as it was when Kat was going through hell and she needed me. If someone else were here for him...it would take that connection from me. I could go for a few days, and then come back. Like Mary and William did before. The only person I can think of though is...Robert. I don't know if he'd agree. And Spectre, if you didn't want to see him, I could always ask Rolf. If...everyone thinks it's okay. And I suppose the same could be done again for Mary with William but...only if that is okay with you, Aly. And William, of course.

I'm trying to be proactive. It makes me feel like I'm actually accomplishing something...

Comments

[ghost-within.livejournal.com]

I certainly wouldn't mind seeing William again. God...

Oh, I'm going to hell for thinking what I'm thinking.

Anyway...Caleb can't see William, but I am sure he could stay with my parents for a few days. And if...William seeing Peter causes a problem...we could stay with David? Only if that's okay with David and Christina.

I don't want you and Mary to be in pain, Thomas. It's so wonderful of you both to come back here to be with us. You have my eternal gratitude. And I know you'll have Peter's to once he is back to his old self. Which he will be. It's just going to be a longer journey than we thought. I'm so sorry you felt like you had to leave yesterday. And I'm deeply sorry for what he said to you. You don't deserve that. I love you, Thomas. I think that being proactive at this point is a good thing.

[abigail-lilith.livejournal.com]

Oh that's all very...technical. But I don't want you to be hurting either! It's...scary to think about you going through that. And I can understand too that it would be easier on you if you weren't here while Joe and Julian are. It sounds to me like you've thought this all out.

I'm sorry for everything that's happened, Thomas. I love you.

Nice name, by the way. Remind me to tease you later?

[empress-tasha.livejournal.com]

I don't blame you for anything you said, Thomas. I didn't invite Hope round here last night because I would have felt bad for bringing her into this house. If that's not fucked up, I don't know what is. I felt bad for leaving Aly and Lydia here, too. This whole situation is wearing on me more than I'd like to admit to anyone. It's fucked, just fucked.

I think your plan is good. I can deal with having Robert here. It's certainly better than leaving you in pain. I'd never want that to happen. And if it helps you avoid family problems, so much the better. Consider me behind this.

I love you, Thomas. I've never felt for a moment that you weren't helping. Even if Peter won't let himself be helped, you're helping the rest of us to deal with that.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Well, you know I was hardly impressed with Robert. But despite what happened, I understand that he was trying to do the right thing. And while I would have no desire to associate with him for longer than necessary, I'm not going to turn my back on you all by refusing to bring him back here. As far as helping everyone, I want to pull my weight. I'll do what needs to be done with Robert and William. Although if you want them both to be brought here at the same time, it might be best to have Rolf get Robert anyway. It's hard for me to bring two people one after the other. But we can cross that bridge when we come to it.

Whatever else I may be able to do, know that I will. You're doing well, Thomas. You're still human, after all, bound by human limitations. And part of that is Peter's own stubborn will to currently not get better. That's not easy to break down, as we're all painfully aware. But we'll get there, and your help will be invaluable in that. We'll be okay, Thomas. I love you.

[lady-with-thee.livejournal.com]

Metaphysics. Such a dreadful pain. Our tag-teaming seems like the best recourse. As David said, it worked well last time.

Don't be so hard on yourself, darling. You're doing all that a man may do, and planning for contingencies so that you may continue to do so. No one could possibly ask for anything more. This isn't upon you alone. Until Peter is willing to meet us all in some sort of effort of his own, there's only so far we can carry him.

If it comes down to it, and the extreme method is the only way, I'm willing to take the pain.