Filtered to Tasha, Aly, Abby, David, Mary and Spectre

[suave_thomas]

Okay. I am actually using the journal Peter made me a long time ago under duress. Peter's being a jackarse and there's things I want to say without him seeing. I can't believe I actually just said that...

Having shocked myself, (and rest assured I now feel suitably guilty) I'll move on. The reason I'm being all hidey? Peter's bad. He's not getting better. And this most likely means that Mary and I will be stuck here for a very long time. It's already been over two weeks. Okay, only by two days. But if memory serves, the pangs can start as early as three. It's never bad that early, but it gets worse fast. And while I could just...deal, I'd rather not. I don't want to watch Mary go through it either. And Joe and Julian are coming in to town on Friday and chances are if Joe and Julian come, it will serve as a sort of stampede and Adam and Violet will too. So there's already going to be issues with...hiding me.

Get to the point, Thomas. Right. I was trying to think of a way to sort of...'solve' both problems at once. Peter clearly still needs someone. My connection here is as strong as it was when Kat was going through hell and she needed me. If someone else were here for him...it would take that connection from me. I could go for a few days, and then come back. Like Mary and William did before. The only person I can think of though is...Robert. I don't know if he'd agree. And Spectre, if you didn't want to see him, I could always ask Rolf. If...everyone thinks it's okay. And I suppose the same could be done again for Mary with William but...only if that is okay with you, Aly. And William, of course.

I'm trying to be proactive. It makes me feel like I'm actually accomplishing something...

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[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Well, you know I was hardly impressed with Robert. But despite what happened, I understand that he was trying to do the right thing. And while I would have no desire to associate with him for longer than necessary, I'm not going to turn my back on you all by refusing to bring him back here. As far as helping everyone, I want to pull my weight. I'll do what needs to be done with Robert and William. Although if you want them both to be brought here at the same time, it might be best to have Rolf get Robert anyway. It's hard for me to bring two people one after the other. But we can cross that bridge when we come to it.

Whatever else I may be able to do, know that I will. You're doing well, Thomas. You're still human, after all, bound by human limitations. And part of that is Peter's own stubborn will to currently not get better. That's not easy to break down, as we're all painfully aware. But we'll get there, and your help will be invaluable in that. We'll be okay, Thomas. I love you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Yeah...I know. I was hardly impressed too, but I've spent a lot of time with him. He's a good man, and he does want to help. The only reason he wouldn't is that other people might not want to see him. I think I'll just ask Rolf...

I love you too, Spectre.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I know. I know he's a good man, it's just... I have issues. And they're not Robert's fault. I probably should have just taken a chill pill up there... never mind. You're right, it's probably best if Rolf and I just coordinate to share the responsibility, anyway.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Spectre, you can feel however you want. You don't have to take a chill...anything. I'll do anything to make you feel more comfortable. Rolf won't mind, he'll be glad to do it.

Do you want me to come see you again when I'm done talking here? I'm certainly not going back to Peter's yet. I was told not to.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I know I don't have to moderate myself around you, but it doesn't give me an excuse to be unfair. Still, I'm in the company of very understanding people here, so I'm okay. And thank you.

I'd love to have you here with me, Thomas. I want you to have a home wherever I am, so please do. I'm sorry you can't be with Peter yet. You will be.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

You weren't unfair. You're welcome.

I know I will be. I know he'll let me in eventually. I'm just so sad for him because he's got to be beyond heartbroken and it won't get better until he lets it.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I'm sad for him too. I hate that he seems to feel that he has to deal with this alone. I wish he could accept our help.