Ruminations of an Afterlife

Spectre won't see me. He's confused. Abby has been to talk to him and she got him to admit he thinks this is all a vision but she thinks that's a side effect of the drugs and fever and the trauma and not a real psychotic break so...yay? Either way, my husband kicked me out of his room.

She's going to make Spectre sleep for a few days. Hopefully the sleep will take care of the infections and just maybe he'll know I'm real next time? I hate those Templar arseholes so fucking much.

I just want to curl up and cry.

Gavin's safe. He's in Rome with Saul and the boys.

According to them, Peter wasn't in the Templar compound in Rome. So we have no idea where he is.

Fuck.

I'm sorry. I have to go. Amaris is with Peter's family and I can't just let him face her alone. I'm going. I'll be back as soon as I can, I promise.

Oh shit oh shit oh shit Amaris got out.

Oh shit.

James hasn't stopped crying since Saturday and I don't know what to do...

Fuckfuckfuckfuck fuckbags fuck.

Amaris almost got me today. Kat and I were in the park but then she had to go. Zoe hurt herself, though I've been assured since then that she's fine. But she left and I was alone with James and then she was there and FUCK.

She's watching me. It's obvious now. How else would she had found me the second there wasn't another adult with me. She knows James is my son. She threatened him. So I ran, because of course, someone didn't have his mobile charged up. The hospital was the closest place and I ran there and I got nearly hit by cars and people and I slipped on ice but I kept going, and I think when I got to the hospital I actually died a little from lack of air, but we're fine. James and I are fine. He's a little scared, so he's sleeping in our room tonight with me since Spectre's in the US. He's asleep now, looking all cute and perfect.

She almost got me today. She almost got my son. After hearing what Peter's dreams entailed and thinking she could do those things to James too... No. I've never been so scared in my life.

We're okay though, Baby. Just so you know. We're both okay, just really shaken up. This wasn't supposed to happen...