Filtered to Kat, but open to Alessa and Spectre too

[suave_thomas]

I've been spamming this thing lately. I guess spending so much of my last visit unable to say anything means I have a lot to say now...and being all...insane means I have a lot I need to say. I can't leave things up in the air, that's not me. And Spectre and Alessa can see this too because I refuse to hide things from them.

Kat, I wanted to talk to you and I didn't know whether or not I should do it in person. I just want you to know I am not upset with you. I don't want to avoid you, and I don't blame you or hate you or any other of those completely worthless emotions when it comes to situations like this. I think you're a wonderful person, Kat. I would be very sad indeed if you weren't in my life, or whatever this is I have, anymore. I just want us to be okay again. And I know it's probably going to be different, and that's okay. You taught and gave me so much, Kat. I love you. And I do need you. And I can admit that. And I want to be here for you too, Darlin'.

How are you?

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[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

My first love was a monk. If you're hardc0re, what am I?

And...joking aside, you're welcome. I was just glad to be there, Kat. Really. I felt honoured to be the person you let help you through that time. And you were not fat, you were and are gorgeous. I'm glad I gave you strength. And I'm so sorry I took it away. I'm sorry that my circumstances meant I couldn't be what you needed. I do hate that, Kat. Being dead is such a bummer sometimes.

And thank everything for Alessa.

Being like that was horrifying, but it's over now. And it won't happen again. We know better now. As for Spectre, I was worried too. Obviously. I think Peter got sick of me saying 'can we go now, can we go now, can we go now' every three seconds when he was trying to be organisy. I'm so helpful.

I always will.

You won't, Kat. Spectre just asked me to move into his room with him, and I wouldn't fuck that up for anything. And you...you love Alessa and you're doing well and she's the mother of your children. You're not going to fuck that up, either. You and I, we learn from our mistakes, unlike some people. And yeah...that was a fucking big mistake. So the lesson better be just as big. You know what you stand to lose. So, Kat? Don't lose it.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Quite naughty, I think!!

I bet it is a bummer. Poor dead Thomas. But you know...I'm sure having a Spectre and a Mary eases that burden somewhat! ;)

I always thank everything for Alessa.

That is a very cute mental image if I take it out of the horrible context where my friend was in pain. I'm sure your frantic questioning there was actually you holding back too...

Yeah...yeah, you're right. I just scared myself. I didn't know I was capable of that, and I've been terrified since then that I'll fuck up again. You're right though. I do know what I stand to lose. And I won't. (Also, Spectreroom*squee*)

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

That's probably true!

Oh how it eases it...I am the luckiest man on the planet.

I was holding back, but I didn't think screaming, "GET YOUR FUCKING ARSES IN GEAR OR I'LL THROW YOU TO GLASGOW" was the correct way to treat the people who were going to help me save my Spectre.

There you go. And yes, there was definitely some squee! Okay, 'some' is a lie...

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I'll hum naughty monk porn music later. OH! Come to Lugosi's when Spectre's feeling better! You have to see Chloe and my show, it's awesome!

And I'm the luckiest woman! What a pair!

Yes...that probably wouldn't have been the correct motivation, but I think everyone would have understood...

Socute.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Is that like...chanting 'bow-chicka-wow-wow'?

Indeed!

Well I would have bought them all lollipops later...

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I'll ask Peter, he's ThE cHoRuSmAsTeR.

AHhaha lollipops as amends for screaming. I like.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Oh! Can I be there when you ask him! I want to see his face! He too that chorusmastering so seriously! He wouldn't even let me near the chapel when they were practising because he knew I was so tonedeaf he was afraid it would spread to the others through the air!

Well...lollipops and hugs.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

Deal! And HAHAHHAH Airbourne Tonedeafness. Nooooo it's spreading!!!1

That makes all the difference :)

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

So of course sometimes I had to show up and sing along loudly because he does this cute little shudder thing when someone's off-key. He can sense a missed note from a mile away...

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

You're such a menace. And I so would have done the same thing!

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Teamwork is awesome.

[angels-facade.livejournal.com]

I love you, Thomas :)

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I love you too, Kat.