Ruminations of an Afterlife

I've been spamming this thing lately. I guess spending so much of my last visit unable to say anything means I have a lot to say now...and being all...insane means I have a lot I need to say. I can't leave things up in the air, that's not me. And Spectre and Alessa can see this too because I refuse to hide things from them.

Kat, I wanted to talk to you and I didn't know whether or not I should do it in person. I just want you to know I am not upset with you. I don't want to avoid you, and I don't blame you or hate you or any other of those completely worthless emotions when it comes to situations like this. I think you're a wonderful person, Kat. I would be very sad indeed if you weren't in my life, or whatever this is I have, anymore. I just want us to be okay again. And I know it's probably going to be different, and that's okay. You taught and gave me so much, Kat. I love you. And I do need you. And I can admit that. And I want to be here for you too, Darlin'.

How are you?