To Those in the Know
Oct. 26th, 2009 08:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
suave_thomasRyn's here! And jolly. And he and Aly are being chummy because David's all up in her head. And Kali's here and they talk shop and I sit here feeling like a fourth wheel, which are usually necessary! They're out searching and I am stuck at home with the skull, making dinner.
I can't make dinner! I'm a gardener! I can grow it! I made sandwiches and then taught myself to do the splits. I've never tried them before. Well, not since I was about ten.
I am totally split-tastic.
I'm going crazy, can you tell? I want Peter back :|
I'm going to call my son and act useful.
I can't make dinner! I'm a gardener! I can grow it! I made sandwiches and then taught myself to do the splits. I've never tried them before. Well, not since I was about ten.
I am totally split-tastic.
I'm going crazy, can you tell? I want Peter back :|
I'm going to call my son and act useful.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 09:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 10:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-26 10:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 09:34 am (UTC)Thomas, honey, you will never be useless. When the time comes, you'll know why you're there. And in the meantime, I know James will have been thrilled to hear from you. Which I would be, too!
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 09:42 am (UTC)I called James and he sang to me and it was adorable! Would you like me to call you so you can sing to me too, you big hinter?
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 10:40 am (UTC)I would love to sing to you, my darling! I may have been a little transparent, there.
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 10:46 am (UTC)That's alright, I like to see you! Or...something that makes sense?
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:07 am (UTC)And my dear, you always make sense to me.
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:09 am (UTC)Want me to take pictures of myself doing the splits?!
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:32 am (UTC)Oooh, pictures! I always want those!
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:44 am (UTC)Oooh, sexy!
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 09:35 am (UTC)Want me to help with dinner? I'm not great, but two heads are better than one.
As the actress said to the bishop.
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 09:43 am (UTC)Sure, Babe. I'd like that.
...?
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 10:42 am (UTC)Well, you know, implying that naughty bishops have affairs with actresses... but the bishop couldn't get it up, so there was a second head, probably a dildo... Yeah, I probably was pushing the whole actress / bishop thing with that one. Peter would have done it better :(
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 10:47 am (UTC)No, I'm just a monk who occasionally needs help with dirty interprutation! :D
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:08 am (UTC)Hehehe! Always happy to oblige with that ;)
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:09 am (UTC)Wonderful! Come take pictures of me doing the splits!
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 09:37 am (UTC)Nice work on the splits. Very nice indeed.
But yeah... I want Dad back too. This whole thing could be done now, and that would be very okay.
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 09:45 am (UTC)Thanks! I'm hoping it will excite Spectre and Mary sometime that is not now.
Yes. Yes it would. How are you feeling, Tashachka?
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 10:44 am (UTC)Haha, I have no doubt they will be very excited. You're exciting, and they're particularly excitable when it comes to you.
How I'm feeling is an interesting question. "With difficulty," might be the answer. I'm very dissociative. It's still hard to convince myself for any length of time that all this is real. It's hard not to wish that I were back with Magnus, if only it would mean that Dad wasn't with the Templar, and the people who died to save me were alive.
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 10:48 am (UTC)Are they now?!
Oh, sweetie. I'd rather have you right where you are. I love you.
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:10 am (UTC)I love you too, Thomas. Never doubt that. It's good to be with you. I just... you were one of the things he held out to me the most. He knew how badly I wanted you. So he reacted accordingly.
no subject
Date: 2009-10-28 11:11 am (UTC)Me?
Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 11:34 am (UTC)Yeah. You. He taunted me with you, with the possibility you'd come for me if I called. Then... he said you wouldn't. Couldn't. Because that time you did, it was because he hijacked your body. Made you a zombie, like the ones in Delford, just one of his puppets. And then... he proved it to me. He did it with my parents, right before my eyes. That was when I knew they were really dead.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I don't mean to tell you like this. But I can't not, and... I'm sorry. I'm sorry it wasn't real, we weren't real. I'm sorry, I hate this.
Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 11:40 am (UTC)Not the point.
Tasha, I'm so sorry he used the people you love to torment you. I am not sorry you're telling me this. Sweetheart, I would listen to anything you had to tell me.
You and I are still real, Babe. Just because he was behind that one experience doesn't mean the rest of them don't count.
Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 11:47 am (UTC)It's funny... that understanding between us, of having shared something of that, feels more real than anything else. It's the first thing that's felt absolutely, truly real since I came back. I'm going to have to be careful this doesn't turn into too much of a need. But I really want to see you when I can. Really really.
You're right. And I think you might be the one person who can actually get me out of this. I don't know how yet. But I think you can.
Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 11:51 am (UTC)Tasha. You need me as long as you want. I will be here for you. I've gotten pretty good at weathering the Pull, and it's not near me yet. I will see you.
I'll try my hardest, Tashachka. I would do anything for you.
I hate having that experience tainted. It meant so much to me. Not just because I was so lost at that point in my death. Not because I couldn't be with anyone else. It was like...no matter what, there was always you. Even with it's tainted memory, there's still always you, Tasha. It doesn't matter how I was brought back. What matters was that I saw you. I was so lost and alone and scared and I saw you and I knew then that I would find my way back. And you knew I would too.
Just don't lose sight of that because some bastard wants to ruin it.
Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 12:01 pm (UTC)I love that I'm still what I was to you. That this doesn't change it.
Thomas? Remember what you're doing for me. Remember that when you feel as if you're useless. And know that you're the farthest thing from it. I need you, and it can't be anyone else. I need you.
Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 12:03 pm (UTC)That two months was the worst I've ever experienced. And you were the bright star in the middle of it. My hope. Nothing can take that away because I refuse to let it.
Thank you, Tasha. I will.
Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 12:07 pm (UTC)Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 12:11 pm (UTC)Re: Screened
Date: 2009-10-28 12:12 pm (UTC)