I know exactly what you mean. Well, almost. I don't know the dead part, but the rest... I imagine that's probably part of why I'm on this filter, aside from the obvious being your friend.
It was really hard for me at first, being around pregnant women when I knew I'd destroyed any chance I might have at having children myself. I love children, I love babies. And because of my stupid mental illness, I really fucked things up for that part of my life. Well, I fucked up one option, anyway. Kait could still have babies, so I can still be a mum. But it would be nice to have the choice. I know how that is.
I wish you could be here all the time. I wish you could create a new branch of your family. You deserve that, and if it were in my power, you would have it in a heartbeat. I'm glad you can take joy in the happiness around you, though. That's so fundamentally you, seeing the best in every situation. I love you, Thomas. You always bring the best with you.
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Date: 2007-09-21 10:57 am (UTC)It was really hard for me at first, being around pregnant women when I knew I'd destroyed any chance I might have at having children myself. I love children, I love babies. And because of my stupid mental illness, I really fucked things up for that part of my life. Well, I fucked up one option, anyway. Kait could still have babies, so I can still be a mum. But it would be nice to have the choice. I know how that is.
I wish you could be here all the time. I wish you could create a new branch of your family. You deserve that, and if it were in my power, you would have it in a heartbeat. I'm glad you can take joy in the happiness around you, though. That's so fundamentally you, seeing the best in every situation. I love you, Thomas. You always bring the best with you.