I love you too, Thomas. I'm so glad you were able to get down the things you're feeling. It's okay that you can't say them out loud yet. You're still expressing them, and that's so much better than not. And now, I can know what's going on, and think about it, and be better equipped to help you. This is really good.
Thomas, I had no idea you were still feeling so torn. Until the last few days, you seemed to be really getting into the swing of having your life back. But I understand that there's more to the pull than just the physical effects. You had a life up there, for lack of a better word. People you love, and that we love. It's not a matter of just going between any more. I understand that that's a tremendous change, and not at all an easy one. If I had suddenly lost the ability to come and see you, I would have been beyond shattered. I really do get it.
I wish we did have more information about this. Rolf may have more to offer. I don't know if you've seen him since your recovery. I hope he might be able to answer some of your questions. I wish being an angel would just automatically provide me with the knowledge. That would be nice. I wish I could make you less afraid of illness, too, but that's probably something that will only come with you experiencing good health.
I'm glad there are things that are still making you happy. I love the way I can make you feel. It's wonderful to know that. You make me feel the same, you always have. That picture certainly did. Thank you. For the presents, too! You didn't have to do that, but I'm not complaining. You always give the very sweetest gifts. I love you, Thomas. Thank you for talking to me here. I'm so glad I know now what's going on in your heart and mind.
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Date: 2008-07-01 12:07 pm (UTC)Thomas, I had no idea you were still feeling so torn. Until the last few days, you seemed to be really getting into the swing of having your life back. But I understand that there's more to the pull than just the physical effects. You had a life up there, for lack of a better word. People you love, and that we love. It's not a matter of just going between any more. I understand that that's a tremendous change, and not at all an easy one. If I had suddenly lost the ability to come and see you, I would have been beyond shattered. I really do get it.
I wish we did have more information about this. Rolf may have more to offer. I don't know if you've seen him since your recovery. I hope he might be able to answer some of your questions. I wish being an angel would just automatically provide me with the knowledge. That would be nice. I wish I could make you less afraid of illness, too, but that's probably something that will only come with you experiencing good health.
I'm glad there are things that are still making you happy. I love the way I can make you feel. It's wonderful to know that. You make me feel the same, you always have. That picture certainly did. Thank you. For the presents, too! You didn't have to do that, but I'm not complaining. You always give the very sweetest gifts. I love you, Thomas. Thank you for talking to me here. I'm so glad I know now what's going on in your heart and mind.