To Those in the Know

[suave_thomas]

Sometimes I think I'm the biggest idiot in the world. My head's better though. I think. I know I'm not lost in some false reality anymore. Or I think I'm not. And hell, even if I am, I might as well enjoy it, eh? I'm still having nightmares, but I think they're just normal ones. Nothing supernatural. Just you know...human.

I still can't get away from the damn IV, but being in here wasn't all bad. Lucian took some samples and he's been labratting and he says he may have a way to slow my damn metabolism down without causing the pull to become a problem. So I'll be here for a little while longer, but not in the wing for the crazies.

I'm really sorry I've been...a burden, I suppose. Whatever it is I'm being. It's just hard to be okay sometimes. And having this body is really...it's becoming a burden to me.

Comments

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

You haven't been a burden, Thomas. Nothing of the sort. In fact, I'm just relieved that you got to this point so quickly. It's wonderful to know you're back with us, my love.

As for the rest of it, your body will get better. Hopefully more quickly than expected, thanks to Lucian. I know this is incredibly difficult for you, but you've just surmounted a tremendous obstacle. Once again, you've proven just how much Thomas Littleton can do.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Well, that was because of Mums. She just makes sense... That and she was reading Twilight and I highly doubt even I would have delusioned that...

I'm just so tired. Just living normally is so tiring.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Mmm, good point. At the very least, you'd hope that you'd delusion a world without Twilight.

It won't be forever, but I understand what you mean. Trying to fight through every day, not feeling like your body has enough of what it needs to do that... it's a little piece of hell, and I only hope it's something we can overcome in you soon.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

She did throw it in the bin, though...

Honey, we don't know that it won't be forever. Lucian may have found something, but he might not have. I hope I can overcome it soon too, but who knows if I ever will?

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Ha! That's our Mums.

You were doing better before this, though. We had it under control. I don't believe that your body has been so badly damaged that we can't do so again, especially seeing as I was able to heal your direct injuries. I really think it's just a matter of building you back up again. Even if the metabolism thing doesn't work, we were able to make life work before. We will do it again.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I just don't want to live attached to a fucking IV for the rest of my life, Spectre. I just...I really don't.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I know, and I don't want you to. Nor do I believe you will. I really think we'll work this out, Thomas. And I promise I wouldn't say so if I didn't believe it.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Will you come be with us? I miss you. And now that I know you're all real, I'd like to see you again.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

It will be my very real pleasure, dear Thomas. I love you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I love you too.