To Those in the Know

[suave_thomas]

Sometimes I think I'm the biggest idiot in the world. My head's better though. I think. I know I'm not lost in some false reality anymore. Or I think I'm not. And hell, even if I am, I might as well enjoy it, eh? I'm still having nightmares, but I think they're just normal ones. Nothing supernatural. Just you know...human.

I still can't get away from the damn IV, but being in here wasn't all bad. Lucian took some samples and he's been labratting and he says he may have a way to slow my damn metabolism down without causing the pull to become a problem. So I'll be here for a little while longer, but not in the wing for the crazies.

I'm really sorry I've been...a burden, I suppose. Whatever it is I'm being. It's just hard to be okay sometimes. And having this body is really...it's becoming a burden to me.

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[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Well, that was because of Mums. She just makes sense... That and she was reading Twilight and I highly doubt even I would have delusioned that...

I'm just so tired. Just living normally is so tiring.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Mmm, good point. At the very least, you'd hope that you'd delusion a world without Twilight.

It won't be forever, but I understand what you mean. Trying to fight through every day, not feeling like your body has enough of what it needs to do that... it's a little piece of hell, and I only hope it's something we can overcome in you soon.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

She did throw it in the bin, though...

Honey, we don't know that it won't be forever. Lucian may have found something, but he might not have. I hope I can overcome it soon too, but who knows if I ever will?

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Ha! That's our Mums.

You were doing better before this, though. We had it under control. I don't believe that your body has been so badly damaged that we can't do so again, especially seeing as I was able to heal your direct injuries. I really think it's just a matter of building you back up again. Even if the metabolism thing doesn't work, we were able to make life work before. We will do it again.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I just don't want to live attached to a fucking IV for the rest of my life, Spectre. I just...I really don't.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I know, and I don't want you to. Nor do I believe you will. I really think we'll work this out, Thomas. And I promise I wouldn't say so if I didn't believe it.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Will you come be with us? I miss you. And now that I know you're all real, I'd like to see you again.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

It will be my very real pleasure, dear Thomas. I love you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I love you too.