To Those in the Know

[suave_thomas]

Samson Mors is an utter dickwad. But even then, I saw the man ask for forgiveness yesterday. And if he can do that, I truly believe there's hope for everyone.

Less context is probably better at this point, but suffice to say he said he wouldn't use visions anymore. And I'll be damned, but considering the circumstances I actually believe him. He didn't see the error of his ways, or make any huge leap towards not being a dickwad, but he did realise that messing with people's minds isn't the right way to do anything. And that's something.

I want to talk to him again. It might amount to nothing. Maybe getting him this far is as much as we're ever going to get, but it's significantly more than nothing.

And might I also mention I have rarely been as proud of anyone as I was of Spectre yesterday. My husband is amazing.

Comments

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Thomas. I love you so much. I love to make you proud.

And thank you for seeing yesterday for what it was. I think you're the amazing one for wanting to pursue it. You're right, though. It may well be a worthwhile thing to do. It's something I think I'd like for us to do together. It may come to nothing, but we'll know we tried. And that too is certainly not nothing.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

My favourite part though was where you told him to shove it up his arse. I almost giggled, though the situation was hardly...giggle-worthy. That's me though. Inappropriate Littleton.

You want to see him again? Of course I will do that with you. But I'm just as happy to do it by myself if you don't want to put yourself through it.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Haha, yes... I can imagine that. And looking back, it was rather amusing. Not for me at the time, but I can see it now!

I think I've gone through the hardest part now. Which isn't to say that what comes next will be easy, but I've finally seen the man behind the monster. If I can possibly see that again, that's worth trying for.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

You're my little firecracker.

Alright, honey. You impress me more every second I know you, I hope you know that. And I'll be right there beside you.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Always with a bang!

Oh, Thomas... thank you. For everything. Every day, you give me reason to love you more.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I...I do like banging with you...

You're welcome! You love me more?! Oh my goodness! I've gone all fluttery. Though I feel the very same thing, Gorgeous Man.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I'm glad it's not just me!

You make me fluttery all the time, Thomas. Every time I look at you, or even think about you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

It's really, really not.

Oh, there you go again. The next time someone tries to keep me away from you, I'm going to bite them on the arse.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

From my perspective, that doesn't sound so much like a threat, as fun...

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Well...I'm bite hard.

I'm nice when I bite your arse! Which is particularly sexy, by the by...

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Ah, I see the difference!

Why thank you! You're quite the delicious one yourself.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I could demonstrate said nice biting on your aforementioned sexy arse...

[break-the-image.livejournal.com]

Sometimes an older brother does wish he hadn't read certain things...

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

You want a demonstration too?

[break-the-image.livejournal.com]

You're insane! Go bite your husband!

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I will :D

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Oooh, a demonstration! For science, of course.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Of course!

[chase-dragons.livejournal.com]

Wow, now that's some seriously huge stuff. I don't remember ever hearing anything about Samson that wasn't dickwad-related before. Awesome that you guys were able to do anything to change that. It's definitely something to be proud of. You rock.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

There wasn't anything about Samson that wasn't dickwad-related before. I wasn't a father when I heard what he had done to the man I loved, and I was disgusted. I'm a father now, and not only am I disgusted, I'm baffled. I can't imagine putting my children through anything that would bring them pain. In fact, thanks to my own childhood, which was not terrible but meager, every time I get to feed them I get all excited and happy. Seeing them full and safe and smiling...there's nothing better than that. But yesterday I saw him admit to being wrong. Because he had been worried for their safety. So there is something of a father in him. Just...skewed.

[chase-dragons.livejournal.com]

I'm not a dad, but I see the way you are with your kids, and I get how much the way Samson acted would be anathema to you. It'd take someone real fucked up not to see how wrong it all was. Which I guess pretty much sums him up. It's so weird to think that he probably thought he was doing the right thing. You gotta wonder what the world looks like to some people.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I think I'd rather not know how the world looks to him. If I did, I might understand and I don't want to. If his sight is his problem, I'd rather be blind than see his way.

[chase-dragons.livejournal.com]

Couldn't have put it better myself, man. You're right. We don't need to see that.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

But I do kind of want wacky contact lenses! Just for shits and giggles.

[chase-dragons.livejournal.com]

Hell yeah! Now you're talking.

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

It just goes to show that Peter's hospital is a place where people really can change :) It may be slow, but if I can do it, so can he. Just because he can doesn't mean he will, but if anyone can help, he's in the best place to get that help with people like you and Peter around.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

We'll try our best. But honey, you were never like he was. You were scared. He just can't see the world through anyone's eyes but his own, and his view is a terrifying one.

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

I think he sounds like he's scared, too. If his view is so terrifying, he's probably terrified of it.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't have thought of that, Svetlana. But it makes a lot of sense. Maybe he's so afraid of the Hell he's always talking about, that he saw pain here as necessary to avoid worse pain elsewhere. Thank you.

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

You're welcome! I'm glad I helped. Sometimes it takes someone who's been there. I think we come from similar places. We were both scared, and we both wanted a family. The difference is that he had one, and still fucked it up. I was never really scared of Hell, but I was raised with religion, so I can understand why he would be, even if it just sounds like fairy tales to me.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

It sounds like fairy tales to me too, now. You're a very wise woman, Svetlana. I think you could help a lot of people.

He did fuck it up. I only hope he eventually finds it in himself to realise how very badly he handled everything, and he tries to make up for it.

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

Aww, thank you! I hope so. I don't think I could make a profession out of it like Peter, but I like to be there when I can help.

It'll take him a long time, but he could probably do it if he really wanted to. We have the advantage of being forever, more or less.

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[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I think you could if you put your mind to it and you actually wanted to. But you do a great deal already.

We do at that.

Are you feeling better, Beautiful?

Re: Screened

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

Maybe. Thank you for thinking so. I might think about it more when Rasputina is older. I just want to be a full-time mum at the moment. Well... that, and helping when people like Mona Ravensdale are in trouble.

I'm better than I was. I'm okay when there are people around. It's when I'm alone that it's hardest. Especially trying to go to sleep. I don't have anyone to snuggle :(

Screened

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

And that is certainly a wonderful thing too. You're an exceptional mother.

Oh, honey. I could stay with you tomorrow night if you wanted. I'm sure Spectre would understand.

Re: Screened

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I think that's the best compliment anyone could give me :)

That would be really, really lovely, Thomas. I just want lots and lots of cuddles, and you're definitely the best person to give them.

Re: Screened

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

And well deserved.

And you shall have them. I'll just make sure it's alright with Spectre. And I'll bring James round to play with Rasputina and spend the night too!

Re: Screened

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

Okay! It'd be lovely to see little James. He and Rasputina are so adorable together :)

Re: Screened

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

They really are!