Thomas, I really don't think this is your fault. I don't think it's necessarily a matter of signals. You and Scarlett went through something terribly fucked up together. She probably feels the need to cling to you more than she knows is actually possible, so she's expressing it in ways that she feels will make her closer to you. It's not something to hate yourself over, my darling. It just goes to show how much you mean to her now. As long as you two can build that into a healthy relationship, then there's nothing to feel bad about.
I'm so sorry you feel ick though, my love. You don't deserve to have things make you feel like that, and I feel awful that the Templar have put you in a position like this.
They were all very different situations. I'm still not convinced there's anything wrong with you, but if you're worried, I might suggest talking to Abby, or Mums. They'll be straight with you if they agree it is you. But with Peter it was a high-pressure situation where anyone would have been vulnerable to something like that, and with Kat... well, she wasn't about to take no for an answer, anyway. Thomas, I don't envy you having been caught in these situations, I really don't. I wish you hadn't been... and honey, it's not because of the physical aspect of kissing, or whatevering, other people. It's because I don't like things that hurt or upset you.
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Date: 2009-07-26 01:15 pm (UTC)I'm so sorry you feel ick though, my love. You don't deserve to have things make you feel like that, and I feel awful that the Templar have put you in a position like this.
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Date: 2009-07-26 01:19 pm (UTC)It wasn't them. There's something wrong with me. It wasn't them when it was Kat or Peter.
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Date: 2009-07-26 01:44 pm (UTC)They were all very different situations. I'm still not convinced there's anything wrong with you, but if you're worried, I might suggest talking to Abby, or Mums. They'll be straight with you if they agree it is you. But with Peter it was a high-pressure situation where anyone would have been vulnerable to something like that, and with Kat... well, she wasn't about to take no for an answer, anyway. Thomas, I don't envy you having been caught in these situations, I really don't. I wish you hadn't been... and honey, it's not because of the physical aspect of kissing, or whatevering, other people. It's because I don't like things that hurt or upset you.
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Date: 2009-07-26 01:47 pm (UTC)I know...they were all different, I just hate thinking that I'm hurting you and Mary. I hope I didn't.
I love you. I'm going to call, I feel crap.
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Date: 2009-07-27 10:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-07-27 10:30 am (UTC)Dialling now.