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[suave_thomas]

Babe, I have to talk to you.

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[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Of course, my love. What's on your mind?

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Jesus. Scarlett kissed me. And I'm terrified that sooner or later you'll decide there's something wrong with me and you'll get fed up and leave me.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Honey... first off, thank you for thinking of me. And thank you for telling me. Thank you for always being brave and honest enough to do that.

Sweetheart, I'm not going to think there's something wrong with you. There's just so much right with you that people develop feelings for you. It just so happens that I get to be one of the two lucky people who are actually married to you. It's not your fault Scarlett kissed you, and quite frankly, it was probably bound to happen. As long as you've sorted it out between the two of you, and it's left in the past, it's okay. These things happen. It's certainly not a candle to what I did when I thought you were gone.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

It just keeps happening and I hate myself, Spectre. I actually hate myself for it!

Babe, you thought I was gone. And you were being advised by a demon who is hard to ignore. You were lonely and grieving and that is so not the same thing. I didn't kiss her back, but I still feel like I must have sent some signal...something.

I just feel...ick.

I'm sorry.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Thomas, I really don't think this is your fault. I don't think it's necessarily a matter of signals. You and Scarlett went through something terribly fucked up together. She probably feels the need to cling to you more than she knows is actually possible, so she's expressing it in ways that she feels will make her closer to you. It's not something to hate yourself over, my darling. It just goes to show how much you mean to her now. As long as you two can build that into a healthy relationship, then there's nothing to feel bad about.

I'm so sorry you feel ick though, my love. You don't deserve to have things make you feel like that, and I feel awful that the Templar have put you in a position like this.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

We can try. All we can do is try.

It wasn't them. There's something wrong with me. It wasn't them when it was Kat or Peter.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

And I know you will.

They were all very different situations. I'm still not convinced there's anything wrong with you, but if you're worried, I might suggest talking to Abby, or Mums. They'll be straight with you if they agree it is you. But with Peter it was a high-pressure situation where anyone would have been vulnerable to something like that, and with Kat... well, she wasn't about to take no for an answer, anyway. Thomas, I don't envy you having been caught in these situations, I really don't. I wish you hadn't been... and honey, it's not because of the physical aspect of kissing, or whatevering, other people. It's because I don't like things that hurt or upset you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Okay. I'll calm down.

I know...they were all different, I just hate thinking that I'm hurting you and Mary. I hope I didn't.

I love you. I'm going to call, I feel crap.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I love you too, Thomas. I hope I can help you to feel better. You haven't hurt me. Of that, I can most certainly assure you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Okay.

Dialling now.