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[suave_thomas]

You okay, Baby?

James told me he and Coco were playing with his balls today. I loved that. Innocence is precious. It helps me with ignoring all the messy and potentially mental-making things right now. Like how thin she is. No no. Balls. Silly balls.

I love you.

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[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I love you, Thomas. So much.

Hehe, balls. I love James and Coco too, even though I haven't had much time to spend with Coco yet. I will. It'll be good.

I don't know, Thomas. That stuff Deirdre was talking about? It's getting to me. I know it's irrational, completely irrational. But the people who say I'm cursed, they do have a point. Disasters do seem to follow me like a bad smell. And I know why, I know it's because we're preyed upon by Templar and crazy demons and serial killers and all the rest of it, and people just notice because the band and I actually get some public exposure... but in the dark hours, sometimes, it makes me wonder.

And yeah. Right with you about Tasha. I could scarcely believe my eyes, and I really don't understand it.

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Coco is a real lady. Even if she does have a weird name. James adores her and it's mutual and I love that. She really was the best birthday gift.

I'm so sorry, baby. They don't have a point though. These disasters...they aren't following you. And look at all the good that follows you too. Like...Flynn for example? He'd still be playing in bars for a meal a day without you. If not...worse... You gave Greg Horne a life after his daughter died. You saved your little sister and look who she is. Beautiful. You give people such amazing music. And you give me the most amazing life. You're not cursed, Babe. And we're blessed to have you.

I know that's what I looked like, and that was just two weeks. We know why that was, and it was devastating. But in reality it was only two weeks. If 'only' can be used. I can't imagine. I can't imagine. A whole year. Our poor Tasha.

And now I'm an arse because I know you can imagine. I'm sorry.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Absolutely. She was an inspired choice. I love how happy she makes James, and I know he'll do the same for her.

See, my love, you make so much sense. Hearing those things... that's what I need right now. When the jackals are yapping, one needs a good lion. I do need to remember Flynn and Greg and Mara. And of course, my beautiful husband. Wonderful people like you bring the light to the shadows.

Our poor Tasha. And even at Samson's worst, he never made me look like that. To put it in terms he'd appreciate, Samson was a saint compared to Magnus. At least he thought he had my best interests at heart. But Magnus... he clearly hasn't the least bit of a redeeming quality to his entire filthy character.

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I found him sleeping in her basket... It was darling, but Peter would have had a heart attack.

That's my job. Light-bringer. Deirdre just got here and she's going to visit for a while, but she said she's coming to ours. Do you want me to come with her and be with you tonight, Baby?

I thank everything possible he never made you look like that. I'm fairly sure he does too, especially now.

Did you notice he won't talk to me? I think he's feeling jilted because of Mary...

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Hehe, yes. I think that one can stay our little secret.

I would very much like to have you with me, darling. As long as you're ready, though. I understand what the impact of this must be for you.

Yes... it's heartening to see Samson's progress. On that, while he's pouting rather spectacularly now, I think he might actually be in a place where he can deal with this in his good time.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Good stuff.

No, no. My husband is upset and I will be there for him. You need me too, Babe. I don't want to leave you alone. You lost people too.

I hope so. I was kind of shocked when I realised I was sad he was blanking me! I also think he called Mary a 'harlot' and I think she winked at him....

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Thomas. Have I mentioned in the last five minutes how much I love you? Because I do. More than I could ever condense into five minutes, or five centuries.

Haha, oh dear. That Mary certainly does have a way about her...

Thomas, I'm really glad you and Samson are getting along in general, even if he's being a twit right now. It's nice to see that function.

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Perfect! Me too!

My Mary is fantastic. And I would have said something about him calling her names, but...with the blanking. We'll get there.

He's only being a twit because he loves you. I think he sees my marriage to Mary as a betrayal against you.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

We will indeed. Maybe, in a few days or so, I should have a talk to him about that. It might help to hear it from me that it's okay.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

It might do. You know what though? I can handle him being angry at me because he's protective of you.

That's how it should be.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

The uh...protective part, not the angry part.

Go, Thomas.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I understood, love. And it makes me very pleased that you feel that way. You're gorgeous.