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[suave_thomas]

Hey, baby. First of all YAY MARA! Second of all YAY Quinn and Flynn! And third of all, I told you I talked to your father over LJ yesterday. I went on for ages about how wonderful you are because he wanted to know more about you? Apparently what I said had an effect on him. He wrote me this today.

I was up all night thinking about what you said, Thomas. I can see your point of view. I think, however, that you are operating with information I don't have.

You once proposed that you show me this...place you call the Beyond. I need to know for sure. To see it for myself. If I am going to know for sure that your homosexuality does not condemn you to hell, I need to see the proof.

If I see that...I think I can accept your relationship. I trust now that you would not be using Adrian's powers to fool me. You reached out to me and you would not have gone through all of this if it was as easy as creating an illusion. I am ready when you are.

We haven't had time to do it before because I was here and then there was touring and then I was here again. I'll be gone in a few days, which is for the best, because I'm getting a bit sore. When I'm gone, it would probably be the right time to bring him to the Beyond. I'll be there, and he can see being gay doesn't send you to Hell. Just make sure Mums or someone is there with your body as well, like we said, though I worry much less about him hurting you these days. It just can't hurt to have someone else he trusts there.

Unless you're not ready for this? If you're not, it's perfectly okay, Babe. Rushing into things never works out.

Also, have I mentioned how attractive your tight little body is when you wear your swimmers? Because yowza.

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[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

We certainly do have quite the entourage of lovely people here, don't we? It's brilliant to see this place doing them so much good. I can't wait to see what happens with Quinn and Flynn.

I think what's happening with Samson is very promising as well. And I agree with him. I think it's time. He has questions, questions that can only be answered by the evidence of his own senses. He's an angel. He'll know what's in front of him, when he sees it. I have faith in that.

I agree with you as well, that it's still for the best to have someone look after my body. Where possible, that's safe practice, anyway. I think for all our sakes, Lavinia is the perfect choice, too. After all, we couldn't let anything happen to this tight little body of mine! Though you are quite the hunk of lovely yourself, husband mine. I'm sorry to hear you're getting sore. I never like to see you go, but I do hope you get some relief soon. I know you're never gone for long.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Whatever it is, it will be beautiful. They're amazing men.

I'm so hopeful for this. I believe he will finally understand. I do worry though. I worry what he will feel when he realises what he did when the threat wasn't real. That could be...pretty devastating. We'll just have to make sure he knows we're there for him.

Mums is certainly protective of your tight little body! And no. This hunk of lovely just can't keep away from you.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Absolutely. Of that, there can be no doubt.

Yes, I think you're quite right there. I think it's a good thing we've all waited this long. Samson has more people who are willing to accept him now than he did before, and it's likely he's going to need that. Perhaps having people there he can rely on, through love rather than fear, will help him even further still.

Well, my love, the feeling is certainly mutual. As evidenced by my many appearances in the Beyond!

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Waiting will certainly make a lot of difference to the outcome. Absolutely. I just...imagine knowing you abused your children because of your desperate fear to keep them safe from something that doesn't exist. I mean...I can't personally imagine it because I just never would. But as an abstract thing, it's horrifying. Finding out what you feared your entire life, what your own father said was true, is based in nothingness... Well we know what happened to Peter when he lost his faith. Maybe Peter would be a lot of help to Samson. Especially since Peter knows well what it is to struggle with guilt.

Yes, feel free to keep those up!

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Yes, I think Peter could be a great deal of help there, as he inevitably can. I feel for my father. I know what he went through, having experienced it myself. If I hadn't had music to transport me to another world, I might have grown up like him. I probably would have ended up in the clergy myself, as I doubt I could have forced myself to marry a woman. My childhood wasn't easy, but his life hasn't been easy. Even now. I just hope that one day, I can see him happy. I know it's going to take time, though. Thankfully, we angels do have plenty of that.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I can't exactly knock the clergy, as I was happy when I was there. But being forced into it because of someone else's beliefs is never a path to happiness. I chose to be there. And reading that you might have joined because you would have joined because you wouldn't have been forced to marry a woman is actually very upsetting for me. I just... I'm so thankful you had music. So very thankful.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I know it was a life you were happy in. That makes me see the clergy in a different light than I might have otherwise, between Peter's bad experiences, and what we've all seen from the Templar. You remind me of the good. I doubt I would have written The Pilgrim's Prog the way I did without you. It probably would have been a much more anti-Catholic album than a pro-faith album. There are so many divergences to our lives... so many ways they could go. Perhaps I would have found something to make me happy in the clergy, but I wouldn't have found love. Not like I have with you. I'm thankful for everything I have, music and you very much included.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

It just breaks my heart to think that you might never have found love. I know Samson might have been easier on you, had you believed what he did. And I certainly wish he had been. But not to know love...

I hate to think that anyone would suffer that, let alone you. I'm just glad our children will always know love. That's...just amazing to know.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

For us to be where we are now, I think it all went in exactly the best way it could have. And for our children, too. They will always be loved. Indeed, it is a wonderful thing.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I'm going to give Samson a ring so he knows what we decided and then I'm going to come show you how much I love you. Not that I really ever let you forget.

Unless you want to call him with me?

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Yay, love! Good plan.

I like the idea of calling him together, too. Let's do that.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Perfect.