To Those in the Know

[suave_thomas]

I don't like admitting fears. I don't know if it's because I unused to having such terrible fears, or if I actually have issues with appearing weak, but whatever the case may be, I don't like doing it.

I'm afraid of the dark.

I am six foot five, once again indestructible, quite burly thanks, and I'm afraid of the fucking dark.

And I died again. I'm dead again. I was tortured mercilessly and I look like nothing happened, and then I died to save my heart and my soul, and you wouldn't know to look at me. Unless you turned the light off and happened to hear my girlish squeal. Thing is, I'm not exactly happy when people turn lights on either, thanks to what Amaris did to me with her...electricity...euugghhh-

In summary? I'm pretty fucked up right now. I really am. But I probably won't act like it. I just can't handle that.

Comments

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

It's okay to be afraid. I get scared too. It's funny, because no one can kill us really. Well, not without a hell of a lot of effort that most people just don't have. But it's the little things, always the little things.

I'm always here if you need someone to talk to or snuggle with. I love you.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

The little things matter so much more than the big ones, sometimes. I can't die, but I can feel pain. And I can be closed off from the people I love which is the worst thing in the world. It was terrible. Worse than I suffered at Amaris' hands. Worse than anything.

I know you are, my beautiful Svetlana. I love you too.

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

Now that I'm surrounded by people I love, I can imagine how horrible it would be. It's not something I'd ever put someone through ever again. And I'm really glad it's something that bitch Amaris will never be able to do again.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I'm glad too. For both things.

You're one of the most important people to me, Svetlana. Don't you ever forget that.

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

I could never forget, with you around being so lovely :) And the same goes for you. You're my best friend, and I was so sad without you. I really wanted you with me, in the hardest times and the best times especially. But in the end, I just want you around all of the times.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Ah, would that I could be, Sweetheart.

And don't you ever try what Deirdre tried!!!

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

I won't, Thomas, I promise. Just come back lots, because I'll miss you!

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I don't think I can avoid that! I miss you all too.

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

Well, as long as there's no avoiding, it's all good :)

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

No!! Absolutely never!

[demon-svetlana.livejournal.com]

:D