It doesn't sound wrong, even if the deepening of your platonic relationship makes me slightly jealous in an entirely healthy way.
She's...bad. Really bad. And I had to tell Samson he didn't get to know his grandkids today while his daughter is missing, and now he is out with my husband and I can't go be with them because I don't have goddamn wings and it sucks. It all sucks.
Uhm...if you wouldn't go insane, I think that might actually be a good idea. I'm sure Samson won't do anything, especially not while he's looking for Mara. I just don't like Spectre being alone with him when there's no controlled environment around. Even if only for how unsafe he might feel.
She's on her way. As I sit here on the internet, my wife goes out to search the city with Samson Mors. She informed me she had wings and me feeling guilty is helping no one.
How did Samson take hearing he doesn't get to meet his grandchildren, Thomas?
He's doing so well and that's great. I'll give credit where it's due, and I know giving up on the things he believes hasn't been easy for him. But...I'm sorry, I just can't justify letting my children anywhere near Samson when he's still in (technically) in 'prison' for child abuse. I know he thought he was helping Spectre and Mara and I know he did it because his own father put the fear of Hell into him by violating his mind with visions, but the last thing I'm willing to do is say 'these are my kids, they are vulnerable and helpless, I'm just going to trust you won't mindrape them'. What if he suddenly decides apropos of nothing, that he lost out with Spectre and Mara and I've just been sent to lead him astray so he doesn't hurt them, and he decides it's up to him to save our children from the Hell Spectre and I are surely going to?
I just...I still see reminders of what he did to my husband in Spectre every day. Mostly little things, but they're there. The way he sometimes thrashes around in his sleep and then wakes up panting, like he thinks he's been dragged back into that hellhole that was his childhood home. Or how he will momentarily panic if someone offers him food and then snatches it away because they're distracted. That's...usually Deirdre. She's easily distracted. And of course, the fact that he's so painfully tiny. And he did it to Mara too. It's slightly less obvious with her, because she was taken away from it sooner than he was. But it's still there. And I will not let him even have the chance to touch my kids with that shit.
Besides, I'm fairly sure if I let Samson anywhere near Marie, Stephie would have my balls. And so she should.
Thomas. Sometimes I wonder if you know how very wonderful you are. I don't think anyone could blame you for being cautious with Samson, outside of Samson himself. I just...you have this way with protecting everyone you come in contact with and I really love that. You say you knew I would do something too so you knew it was right. I think 'what would Thomas do' all the time.
How is that for Bromance?
Which is a term that freaks me out, by the way. If our romance is suddenly 'bro', does that mean the dreams I sometimes have are very, very wrong?
That's pretty darn awesome for Bromance, Peter. Thank you.
HAHHAHAHAHHA!!! Oh, I needed that! Thank you for the first actual laughter I've had in days. No, Peter. The dreams are very, very right, and you're not the only one who has them.
Not amusing. Endlessly adorable and reciprocated, Peter Gabriel. Kemp. Not...the other Peter Gabriel...
Anyway...
So am I. This is all so shit, Peter. Mara is only twelve. And I don't know who has her, but...Jesus I'd do anything to keep her from what she must be going through. I'd even go back to Amaris again, as long as Mara didn't have to suffer it.
Do you think Amaris has her, Peter? God, I hope not...
I didn't have a vision of Mara, I had a vision of the Templar. You know how I said it was Amaris who told the Templar about Aly when they had me? Well...Amaris isn't their guest so much as their captive.
She's strung up somewhere, I just don't know where. Not yet.
Thomas, I know what she did to you. I know because you've told me and Abby told me, and I had to watch it on that sick video she sent to toy with us. I understand why you feel that way, but do you remember what you said to me when I was quite content to let Razvan fry on that electroshock therapy bed after what he did to David and me?
I don't see me doing anything to her. I just couldn't stand the thought of you harming anyone, even after everything he had done to harm you. That's just not my Peter.
I'm not the one harming Amaris. I just can't be upset she's getting some of her own medicine.
Oh Jesus Christ, that was such a lie. Peter, I won't let you face her alone. I doubt she could take a second to be grateful and she would have you chained up in a basement that very same day you pulled her off the damn cross.
Oh, I wouldn't go alone. Not the least reason being I have absolutely no interest in spending yet more time in that lovely hideyhole under the Vatican, should the Templar be on the ball when a rescue attempt is made.
Amaris won't get the chance to chain anyone up in a basement, Thomas. But thank you. See what I mean by protecting the world?
Good! I have a feeling there are still rumours circulating around LC about Lydia, because she's cagey every time I ask her if things have quieted down. But if there was actual trouble, she'd tell me.
William and Thomas are making great friends. I feel so bad for poor William, but he seems okay. I think it's an orphan solidarity thing. My parents died and it sucked, and I just want him to be happy even though David and Christina aren't here anymore. I think the fact that he's younger is both a blessing and a curse. He can't understand it now, but when he's older, he might be upset he doesn't remember them.
Poor Lydia. Teenagers can be so cruel. Hell. LIFE can be so cruel.
I feel for William too. David is there in spirit, literally, but it's not the same. You're a wonderful father, Peter. And he'll be grateful for you and your willingness to accept him as a son. I know, however, that there are more issues than that. I have faith you and Aly will help him through them.
I know he does. And I might love it a little too much.
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Date: 2009-12-08 12:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-08 12:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-08 12:55 pm (UTC)How is Abby, Thomas?
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Date: 2009-12-08 12:57 pm (UTC)She's...bad. Really bad. And I had to tell Samson he didn't get to know his grandkids today while his daughter is missing, and now he is out with my husband and I can't go be with them because I don't have goddamn wings and it sucks. It all sucks.
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Date: 2009-12-08 01:01 pm (UTC)I'm so sorry. Is Adrian alone with Samson? Aly says she'll go find them. Not that that idea thrills me, but she's tougher than she looks.
Aaaaaand she just hit me. Ow.
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Date: 2009-12-08 01:03 pm (UTC)Uhm...if you wouldn't go insane, I think that might actually be a good idea. I'm sure Samson won't do anything, especially not while he's looking for Mara. I just don't like Spectre being alone with him when there's no controlled environment around. Even if only for how unsafe he might feel.
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Date: 2009-12-08 01:05 pm (UTC)She's on her way. As I sit here on the internet, my wife goes out to search the city with Samson Mors. She informed me she had wings and me feeling guilty is helping no one.
How did Samson take hearing he doesn't get to meet his grandchildren, Thomas?
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Date: 2009-12-08 01:06 pm (UTC)Saying 'not well' would be a drastic understatement.
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Date: 2009-12-08 09:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-08 09:45 pm (UTC)He's doing so well and that's great. I'll give credit where it's due, and I know giving up on the things he believes hasn't been easy for him. But...I'm sorry, I just can't justify letting my children anywhere near Samson when he's still in (technically) in 'prison' for child abuse. I know he thought he was helping Spectre and Mara and I know he did it because his own father put the fear of Hell into him by violating his mind with visions, but the last thing I'm willing to do is say 'these are my kids, they are vulnerable and helpless, I'm just going to trust you won't mindrape them'. What if he suddenly decides apropos of nothing, that he lost out with Spectre and Mara and I've just been sent to lead him astray so he doesn't hurt them, and he decides it's up to him to save our children from the Hell Spectre and I are surely going to?
I just...I still see reminders of what he did to my husband in Spectre every day. Mostly little things, but they're there. The way he sometimes thrashes around in his sleep and then wakes up panting, like he thinks he's been dragged back into that hellhole that was his childhood home. Or how he will momentarily panic if someone offers him food and then snatches it away because they're distracted. That's...usually Deirdre. She's easily distracted. And of course, the fact that he's so painfully tiny. And he did it to Mara too. It's slightly less obvious with her, because she was taken away from it sooner than he was. But it's still there. And I will not let him even have the chance to touch my kids with that shit.
Besides, I'm fairly sure if I let Samson anywhere near Marie, Stephie would have my balls. And so she should.
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Date: 2009-12-08 09:50 pm (UTC)How is that for Bromance?
Which is a term that freaks me out, by the way. If our romance is suddenly 'bro', does that mean the dreams I sometimes have are very, very wrong?
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Date: 2009-12-08 09:51 pm (UTC)HAHHAHAHAHHA!!! Oh, I needed that! Thank you for the first actual laughter I've had in days. No, Peter. The dreams are very, very right, and you're not the only one who has them.
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Date: 2009-12-08 10:00 pm (UTC)And in all seriousness, I'm glad I made you laugh too.
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Date: 2009-12-08 11:46 pm (UTC)Anyway...
So am I. This is all so shit, Peter. Mara is only twelve. And I don't know who has her, but...Jesus I'd do anything to keep her from what she must be going through. I'd even go back to Amaris again, as long as Mara didn't have to suffer it.
Do you think Amaris has her, Peter? God, I hope not...
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Date: 2009-12-08 11:47 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-12-08 11:49 pm (UTC)I didn't have a vision of Mara, I had a vision of the Templar. You know how I said it was Amaris who told the Templar about Aly when they had me? Well...Amaris isn't their guest so much as their captive.
She's strung up somewhere, I just don't know where. Not yet.
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Date: 2009-12-08 11:50 pm (UTC)Good.
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Date: 2009-12-08 11:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-08 11:54 pm (UTC)I'm not the one harming Amaris. I just can't be upset she's getting some of her own medicine.
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Date: 2009-12-08 11:54 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-12-08 11:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-08 11:58 pm (UTC)Amaris won't get the chance to chain anyone up in a basement, Thomas. But thank you. See what I mean by protecting the world?
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:22 am (UTC)God damn she makes me into someone I don't like being.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:24 am (UTC)She put you through hell and it's understandable. I just know you're above it, like you knew I was.
You know...eventually.
And then he broke my wrist after I rescued him anyway. Sometimes I remind him and random cake shows up at my office the next day.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:24 am (UTC)Of course you do.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-09 02:25 am (UTC)I'm not mad you didn't tell me the Templar had Amaris, Peter. I get it.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-09 02:27 am (UTC)I can't talk about it anymore. I'm going stir-crazy here. How is everyone there?
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:30 am (UTC)William and Thomas are making great friends. I feel so bad for poor William, but he seems okay. I think it's an orphan solidarity thing. My parents died and it sucked, and I just want him to be happy even though David and Christina aren't here anymore. I think the fact that he's younger is both a blessing and a curse. He can't understand it now, but when he's older, he might be upset he doesn't remember them.
He calls me 'Peepee'...
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:32 am (UTC)I feel for William too. David is there in spirit, literally, but it's not the same. You're a wonderful father, Peter. And he'll be grateful for you and your willingness to accept him as a son. I know, however, that there are more issues than that. I have faith you and Aly will help him through them.
I know he does. And I might love it a little too much.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:33 am (UTC)I'm terrified he'll get all the others doing it! Then it will be a chorus of 'Peepee, Peepee!' and it'll be like I'm in primary school again!
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-09 02:34 am (UTC)I love you more, Thomas.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-09 02:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-09 02:35 am (UTC)This could go on a while. We'll agree to disagree.
Abs is waking up. I should go be with her. Thanks, Peepee.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:36 am (UTC)Give her my love.
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Date: 2009-12-09 02:36 am (UTC)