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[suave_thomas]

Hey, Babe.

My best friend is rushing off to rescue Amaris. Still don't know how I feel about that.


Thing is, I told him he wouldn't be going alone, but now I don't want to leave you alone. You know...until I have to. You want me here? William or Mary or several others can go instead of me. Just say the word.

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[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

I can't say I'm particularly impressed with the idea myself, though I know why he has to do it. And in a way, if she's going to be in custody, better ours than theirs. I don't necessarily trust their ability to hold her.

I don't want to keep you from the mission if you're needed, Thomas. But you're quite right, there are others, and I'd be worried about you going out there for something when your heart wasn't completely in it. And not only would it do me good to have you here, but I think Mara really needs people she can trust right now, too.

It's just my opinion. But this time, I think it might be better if you're here. As long as that's okay with you, my love.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I want her arse dead. She's the only person in the world I feel that way about, but I really do.

I wouldn't be going for Amaris, I'd be going for Peter. My heart is completely in that. It's with you two more.

I'll stay. Of course it's okay with me. I love you. Both of you.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Well, it's certainly not a scenario I'd be complaining about. Though I'm okay just with knowing she's somewhere she can't hurt anyone.

I can certainly understand that, Thomas. I know your heart is always completely in anything involving Peter.

I love you, Thomas. Thank you. Thank you for being here with us.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I just hate that we have to rescue her. I mean...how the fuck is that fair? Argh.

Of course it is. And in anything involving you.

You're welcome. I just want to help Mara be... Augh. I don't know. I don't know what to do for her. She's only twelve.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

It isn't. It's complete bollocks, and I know she doesn't have it in her at all to appreciate that we're doing it for her. I wish I could believe that the Templar, of all people, might have changed her. But I don't believe it for a second.

I know it is, Thomas. And that absolutely goes both ways.

I don't know, either. I think Peter can probably help us a lot with that though, after having been through it with Anna. And we have Abby, too. We'll be there for her the very best we can. Still... I know exactly how you're feeling.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

No. I don't think she can change. And even if SHE can, that bloody Brian can't. I'm fairly sure mental disorders carry over, even in spirit form. He is only out to do what is best for him and nothing else.

I've never been so....utterly horrified. When Abby said what she said...I've never felt that way before, ever. I wanted to scream and cry and kill things and vomit... Just...augh. I don't blame Mara for not talking about it.

I am, however, so utterly relieved she didn't show you what she went through. You already had to watch what Amaris did to me. You had to watch me die. I don't think we needed to add this to the list, even though I know you would go through it for her. Hell, I would too. I'm just...glad it didn't go that way.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Ugh, don't even get me started on Brian. They're both of the most utterly reprehensible type. Maybe, if we're lucky, Brian will decide it's time to go.

Yes. This was a new kind of horror entirely. We've seen such dreafdful things, both of us. Seen the depths of human depravity. But this... In my worst nightmares, I never imagined this.

I know anyone in that room would have watched, if Mara asked them to. I love that she has that support, though I wish it never came to a point where that might be asked of us. I don't know how a normal family would ever deal with this. Even knowing what we know, doing what we do, it still seems so... beyond everything.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

I hope so.

Me neither. I really never did.

It does. Speaking of families...how is Samson? I'm afraid he's gone off me since I told him he couldn't see James and Marie. Does he know what happened to Mara, even if he doesn't know the result?

I'm just worried about what might happen if he finds out about Razvan. I would think the urge to mess with Razvan's head might be too great for him to ignore and I just wouldn't want him to fall back into that.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Honestly, honey, I don't know. I haven't told him anything - in fact, I've been avoiding him, which really isn't fair of me, I know. He'd be able to sense Mara. We should tell him something. Personally, I'm dubious about even telling me she was raped, though. That might be enough to make him go batshite. But if we just say she's injured, we can't justify him not seeing her, and if he sees her... I feel that he'll know.

I don't know what to do.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Okay, it'll be okay, Honey. We'll ask Abby. She'll know and if she doesn't feel comfortable putting on her psychiatrist hat instead of her 'don't you come near my baby' hat, Mums will know. If...it's okay to ask Mums?

Why have you been avoiding him?

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, I think it's okay to ask Mums. If ever we needed her...

I've been avoiding him because I feel guilty. He's been doing so well, for the most part. He's trying to be a good man. Now something awful has happened to his daughter, and I'm being dishonest about it. For good reason, I know, but I can't imagine looking him in the eye now and not giving something away in my demeanor. I don't think I could lie to his face, because I know what it means to be a father now.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Yes. And she always knows what to do.

Ah. Yes, that's difficult. Well, I could go in there anyway, even if he is less than thrilled about me. If I took the first questioning, you might not have to be dishonest at all. Would that make you feel better?

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

She does, at that.

If you feel up to dealing with it, Thomas, I would appreciate it so much. Plus, you do have Abby's expertise, as well as knowing him well enough to have a handle on him. As with so many things, I think you might just be the best man for the job.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Spectre, baby, I would do anything for you. Of course I feel up to dealing with it. I'm hardly going to make you do it. We'll talk to Abby and then Mums and then I'll go see him.

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a plan, my love. Thank you.