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[suave_thomas]

I don't know what to do. I know Peter wants me here because he's terrified of what will happen when Aly has the baby, even though I'm sure everything will be just fine. And there's so much going on here too... And I wanted my Valentine's Day, dammit. Which is selfish, but I'm human even if I am dead.

But I know they could use me in Rome. Because if I went in there, they couldn't kill me. I know the layout. Gavin, Tamm, and Stephie can all die. I can't. It's like...there's no one left. Josie can't go and Razvan's protecting Liz's family...though it uhm...seems like that fear has been taken care of... But I'm sure that with all the crap happening, someone needs to stay here. Allanah's here. But Rosa's gone, and Rolf's gone, and I'm rambling because I don't want to go. I don't want to go to Rome. You all saw what they did to me there. It terrifies me, but it terrifies me more to think that it could be happening to Kay and Deirdre. Just no. But if I go, is that running out on the reason I'm here? Will I just disappear then!?

God, I don't know what to do!

Comments

[in-spectre-mors.livejournal.com]

First off, Thomas, you're not being selfish. I want my Valentine's Day with you, too. And I truly hope all this can be over by then. You're right... there is an incredible amount of darkness we need to focus our energies on. It's hard not to feel overwhelmed.

I think that wherever you are, you'll help. A lot. If it's Peter you're here for, maybe it's best you do stay with him. There are a lot of people who need Peter to be okay, and if you can help with that... that's a big help. If the people going to Rome need someone who can't die... maybe Mary should come back, too? It's a possibility. On the other hand, you do know the layout as you said, and maybe having two people who know that will be better than having one.

I don't have the answer, I'm just bouncing thoughts around to see if anything strikes you...

[empress-tasha.livejournal.com]

Thomas, you're one of the least selfish people I know. You're always doing everything you can to help others. I know that wherever you decide to be, it will be the right thing, and you will do so much good. Either place is good for you to be. Personally, I like the idea of you being there to protect Stephie. But I like the idea of you being here to help Dad, too.

I don't know... I'm here for Dad, but I can't go to Rome. Well, I could, I guess, but... I don't know. I guess I'm too scared. I sure as hell don't blame you for being afraid of that place. We've both been there, even if you got it a hell of a lot worse than I did...