To Those in the Know

[suave_thomas]

Apparently my father has pancreatic cancer. Mums just rang from the hospital. He called her. I don't understand why, but maybe it was just because he's alone and she's too wonderful to leave him there with no one. Either way...I can't go see him. And even if I could, I don't know if I would. Mums said we didn't have to. But that's why he wanted to see us. He admitted that he wanted to see Joe, Abby, Adam and Ellie because he was dying and dying has a way of making people realise their mistakes. Not that he admitted them.

He's dying and I'm alive again. And it's weird.

Comments

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

Aw, fuck... that's horrible. I'm sorry to hear it, man. I guess, whatever improvements he can make in the time he has left, that's a good thing. Maybe he will admit his mistakes to Lavinia. We can hope, yeah? Might be the time for him to understand. Late, fucking late, but at least not never.

Man... I totally get the feeling weird thing. You're always welcome here, if there's any help we can give.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

People are saying they're sorry for me and it's not me who gives a damn. Be sorry for Mums, she's sad. I'm...pretty much nothing. I'll never trust any improvements he makes because he's probably just making them to make himself feel better. He had thirty years to do so. Doing it now because all of a sudden there's a deadline? That's bull. It's bull and I do not think it's okay. I'd rather have it be never. Then at least he was being honest.

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's a good point. Maybe he is just making himself feel better, which sucks. Sucks that he's dragging Lavinia through it too, if that's what this is. Well, I know I'll be there for her, and obviously a heap of other people besides. We'll make sure he doesn't get under her skin.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Mums will feel better about herself that she's there. It sucks that he's dragging her into it, but she'll be glad he did, for better or worse. I can't say the same for my siblings though.

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad it'll do your mum good. She's an awesome woman, always has been and always will be. I'm sorry about the others, though. Sucks that they have to deal with it. I'll do everything I can to be a mate for them too, though.

[suave-thomas.livejournal.com]

Thanks, MG. You're wonderful.

[twilightrobe.livejournal.com]

You're welcome, man! Thanks for the compliment, it means a hell of a lot.